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The Company of the Moon

I don’t know the specificities about writing blogs but I would rather write this now than research how to write this, so here I go! I did write a blog once before, for friends and family years ago from a training in Russia. They were worried about me being there in a place so far away and so unknown. I called it “The clouds are the same over Russia” because they were, they look just the same and it made me feel at home.

9 years later I am in Cambodia, the very beginning of our travels, under the darkening sky, headphones on, taking time to myself on a lounger beside my 2 daughters, I look up and this is what I see. An almost Half-Moon, lying differently in the sky but she is the same glorious Moon.

My two daughters and I are travelling for 8 weeks which is a gift and yet there is a tension in my body. I have left so much at home. All of my supports, in terms of my activities that keep me sane (mostly dancing and singing), the quietude of my own home and bedroom, my favourite walk loaded with Water, Sky and Earth and the Seals who sometimes follow along. They are great company. Most importantly, I have left the people in my life who colour it with love, laughter, nourishment and support. I am so aware of the deep value of these connections and communities. So amongst the feelings of gratitude and excitement of being able to be here, there is a part of me who is afraid that it will be too much to take care of others and that resourcing myself, especially in the cities will be next to impossible. I have been consoling myself with the fact that this in itself is beautiful. Knowing that I have so much at home that sometimes the idea of staying here sounds better than leaving it. That makes my chest fill with tears, how lucky is that. But it doesn’t quite ease the tension. It just stays.

So, in the middle of this bustling little city of Siem Reap, using the music through my headphones to find more of myself and my places of connection, I look up and see the surprise of the moon, surrounded by trees. Wow, she is so beautiful! I heard myself letting out a sigh relief. Tension dissolving, knowing that I still have the Moon for company and she is always available, always, just like at home. She looks the same, like the clouds over Russia she looks the same. She gives me great comfort and somehow I can feel her power inside me. She is my resource.

So, I will do my best to see her as often as possible. To connect with her, to speak to her and listen for her response, to dance under her and sing for her. And be ever grateful for her consistent presence.

Thank God for the company of the Moon!